Rollercoasters

Hi and welcome to my blog! I hope these short essays of my life will give you a glimpse into what happens here at Broken Sparrow. Each day brings with it a rollercoaster of emotional ups and downs that I've learned to embrace. Some days it's a wild ride that turns my tummy into knots and other days are as enjoyable as a Ferris Wheel ride on a spring day. So jump- on and here we go.....
For the last couple of weeks I have been saying things like 'I can't wait till school starts', 'I'm counting the days till school begins', and I'll be glad when all the kids are finally in school'. Summer is always fun but exhausting! So with school right around the corner, of course, I've been day dreaming about having some 'ME' time!
Finally today came and I began loading kids on their buses one at a time. Then as I watched Ty climb onto that huge bus for his first day of kindergarten all of a sudden my heart did a flip and I almost ran and pulled him back off! He looked so little next to that huge bus! But I stood my ground, took a deep breath and said a quick prayer instead.
You see, Ty wasn't supposed to have a first day of kindergarten. He wasn't supposed to be able to walk to a bus, or even say 'bye mama' with that huge Ty smile. As I watch the bus pull away I think back to when a doctor sat me down and told me I should be thinking about how I would deal with Ty's earthly departure (major rollercoaster). Now here I am trying to handle his first day of school departure!
Two short years ago Ty wasn't walking, talking,eating or breathing well. His condition seemed to be getting worse and the doctors didn't give us much hope. But I clung to the hope in Christ, and His assurance that, 'He will finish the work He began in Ty'.
Now as I walk back through the house, I can see in my minds eye, Ty's walker gathering dust in the crawl space, his suction machine buried deep in a closet somewhere and his replacement g-tubes in a box long forgotten. But most of all I can still hear his happy voice, ringing through the house as a declaration of his freedom 'Moommeeee'!
Yes, Ty's short life has been a rollercoaster of highs, lows, twists, turns and even some loop de loops! Will there be more... absolutely! But today.... I'm ready for that Ferris Wheel, a cup of hazelnut coffee and a little 'ME' time.
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